At that time, I was one from the police school graduates in the new police, because of his father’s relationship, I was assigned ed hardy shop to smoothly City Public Security Bureau, to go to work soon after the bureau in the new collective living quarters I am a a One Bedroom house, life seems good, get rid of the eight-hour day, after working hours, most of my time was spent in that house suites.
I like the plain and leisurely life, I like the time from my fingers like water flow out between the faint feeling.
Work of the first three months of a downpour of the night, I caught a woman in prostitution, she called Ms. Ch’en Yin, aged 20, is the city where a university student at the time, I have not embarrassed her, and only a token of interrogation a few of her let her go.
When she left, I put my cards to the police contact her, then have my cell phone number above.
The next time, living standards continued to ed hardy shoes dull, I’m nearly gave the night to forget that periods of heavy rain, and only in the occasional that moment, I will inadvertently think of Chen Ran’s face. But the next thing quickly confirmed that she had not forgotten me, the day before Thanksgiving, she suddenly made a text message to me, something she said she was looking for my help and asked me be free. I hesitated a moment, but I went in a bar the door I saw her, she wore tight-fitting white sweater and blue jeans, seemed to be especially sunlight.
She said the girl with her rent has been arrested and police stations should be fined and asked to say what can I help. Frankly, as I like the new police, to intercede with the police station had little effect, but I still some anger, I hate this sort of thing on her to help me, my gas bitter toward the air waving his arms, as far as possible his calm, with a calm tone as she asked how many fines.
“3000.”
“Well, I’m not going to intercede to your friends, but I can borrow your money.”
I then followed me to Chen Ran dormitory to collect the money, cars downstairs, I did not let her upstairs, and she seems to have no intention of stairs. To give money to her, I drove her to a nearby police station, so she got out.
More than 20 o’clock the next day when I received her phone. This time I first spoke, I said: “Miss, your friends would not be so busy at work make the same mistake it.” Phone there seems to quiet a few seconds, and then I heard saying that she would repay to the我.
“I’m at your bar opposite the hostel.”
Bar little bar inside and some blue long tables, each table was short, chandeliers above all, the name of the yellow light. I like the yellow lights, it made me feel comfortable, natural and warm, in bars are not many jazz flowing slowly.
Chen Ran, and a giving her a long queue of girls sat together, Chen Ran, said she called Teng Hui, needless to say, she will be fined is the girls yesterday, so in her hand stretched out to greet me when I did not to shake her hand. She seems a bit embarrassed to recover hand. But do not take long for and lively up, and she said to me: “You’re police officers do, I first met the handsome police so mild.”
Chen Ran looked at me, and she let me drink coffee before, I never drink coffee, I am afraid of hardships, but that day I finished it in one breath simmering air, a bitter after Ganxiang out from the throat coming out.
After the time, I and Chen Ran’s contact time by a sudden multi-up, and she always gives me a message, send a number of malicious humor, and my reply is always one word: Read. She patiently hair, I have taken the trouble to back, so often confused until the middle of the night, my phone’s ring tone is still ongoing. Sometimes I would ask her: late, and you do not go back to sleep? She returned: My night started from the day.
She shut down, and she was hiding in a corner of the city, cutting off the only link with me, so I no longer know what to do in her, and we are just floating around in the city means the crevices of the two kites, line rope a break, who did not know who.
And Chen Ran text chat lasted more than a month days of winter came, everybody in town overnight Xuela was a white. One day, she suddenly called me, she said she wanted to meet me.
I said: “You’re over it.”
She laughed; “I was in the outside of your office.”
I panic, I hang up calls from the office ran out in the Public Security Bureau in the hall, I saw wearing a white coat, Chen Ran, and she wore a blue hat, leaving for the white and small, little face red, boots on the covered with snow, she said: “Take me to eat hot pot, and I had no money.”
Eat hot pot, I also brought her stroll the mall, but I did not buy her anything, I just followed her, to accompany her, see her try those clothes and shoes, the mall was very warm, just like back in the spring, she the coat off, and revealing a tight red sweater, her body is so good.
I said: “You do model bar!”
Chen Ran the coat in her arms, she shilly-body, said: “I was too short, too short of.”
That night, Chen Ran was to spend the night in my dormitory, and she was living with roommate’s boyfriend came, she could only spend the night in my there, she said: “The Public Security Bureau of the hostel, sounds more than a sense of security.”
I sleep in the living room, Chen Ran sleep in my bed, and outside the snow Susu, the night quickly in the past, the next morning she got up, she had to hurry to go to school, grooming has finished, she said to me: “Under I have some money it, 500 is enough. ”
Rujiabaohuan well-being
Ran Chen and I love the bureau colleagues know I have a Ruhuasiyu’s girlfriend, that period of time, I just like be considered as a happy man.
Chen Ran asked me: “Will you love me?”
I do not hesitate to say: “will.”
Chen Ran smiled, raised at the beautiful lips, she dishes on the table may be more efforts towards my bowl clip, this time she is a frequent visitor of my dormitory, and also occasionally in my night, she always is late when she called to tell me in my quarters outside the compound, let me pick her, but we have never slept together, I have not asked, and she did not mention. I do not want our relationship to become too complicated, I would like to briefly, in addition to the kind of love, or love, away from the virtual Ye but do the right close by.
I like this simple, it is so simple that no impurities, transparent, and watching her put on my pajamas from the bathroom into the bedroom, my heart will be very warm, very warm, and sometimes she would sit on the sofa Chuichui I of the chest, like a child, listen to my heartbeat, counting the number of mouth, and I only touch up to her shoulders and hair. Her scent is like rhododendrons in May of the same in my room filled.
New Year’s Day after a few days, I leave, I called about her over, I said: “I’d like you to do the dishes.” She came, and still wearing those pieces of white coats, leaving for a white packet, and she done for me a long absence, Fried Chicken Ding, straight eat constantly hiccup we face crimson.
The next day, we went to park kite-flying, kite-flying in winter is not a season to Chen Ran was literally going to, she threw the air kites, kite soon fell to the ground may be, and she dragged kite run on the grass in the brown , tits with her hair one last look at the dance. I sat next to the stone bench, this time I saw her packet, I hesitated a moment it opened, I saw a bunch of dressing and paper towels, and then I saw a few packs of condoms, a force impulse on the head, I would not hesitate to keep a condom from the bag and pulled out, thrown into a nearby bush.
Finally, she ran tired, and she ran to my side, give me the rope, and she let me have to put.
Make kites fly overhead, and it, it can see the spring.
I seize the rope, ran toward the grass, I ran a! Body sweat.
Fang End kites, we sat resting on the grass, the sun very warm, and Chen Ran looked up and face the sun, with two hands over his eyes, she said: “You see, through the fingers, the sun is the seven colors of the.
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I asked Chen Ran: “Every night we go play it?”
Chen Ran silent a moment, she said: “Every night I’m going to work.”
“Money is really that important to you?” I asked her.
Chen Ran Zheng Zhu, and she wore my eyes. Then I went to her, said: “Then you go, do not tarnish your holy work!” Finished, I threw the kite on the ground, without turning the left, leaving her behind me calling me loudly The name, I pretend that one had not heard.
The time soon after the Spring Festival, I received the new uniforms.
I thought, I and Chen Ran’s story might have as an end, although sometimes bubble memories of coming out regularly, smoke the first time I saw her, her panic and the last time I told her roar, she’s driven to distraction, cities in the rotation, our memories are also increasingly turn pale.
One day, I suddenly saw the road outside the patrol Chen Ran, and she was dressed in blue work clothes, bent over at the rub a car, I parked in a two meters away from her place, and I looked at her, she set up the work into the hair inside the cap, face pale and bright and clean.
Chen Ran saw my car, her raised arms waving to me, and she thought I came to car washing, and instincts are far away from the police.
I alighted from the vehicle, and Chen Ran saw me, my police uniforms in the spring sunshine away from the shining brilliance, she was caught by surprise, and she go back, retreated to the car, she took off his gloves, Yanmian began to cry, this is the first time I saw her crying, crying so fragile, then the grief-stricken, until the whole person squat body, shoulders severe jitter.
“Little Ran, a small contingent, with my back to it.”
Chen Ran really follow me, and she put on from the car wash his own clothes, on my car and I said nothing to her pulling my dorm is the same, that has not changed, not the slightest unfamiliar Chen Ran a sense, she went straight to wash the bath, rushed in my bed. This time we make love, and very natural, I am a little nervous, she was more nervous, nails dig into my shoulder, hurt, hurt the heart.
I Ran Chen and I have something to tell my parents, my parents said, such as Chen Ran a graduation I married her. Chen Ran also followed once I went to my house, pretty satisfied with her parents, our lives seem to have been back into the calm and simple.
However, this time an accident happened, the bureau destroyed a prostitution gang, in the interrogation, they denounce Chen Ran, the police quickly found my hostel Chen Ran, and Chen Ran that time I was in the make dinner, we put Richard’s piano sound was big.
Chen Ran was taken away, the stop may go back to look at me, she was shouting my name, my colleague put me in room, would not let me out loud. I do not care them, I yelled in the room, I said, Chen Ran was innocent, that everything is long past. However, I did not care.
Chen Ran is a woman in prostitution news quickly spread to my circle of friends.
Beautiful is always short-lived
I use their own savings to pay the penalty for Chen Ran, I did not go to intercede or to explain the way I was afraid of my self-esteem can not stand, I led her out, still received my dormitory, and she seemed tired of the pole, mouth and eyes Fanchu rare purplish black. I said to her: “hungry, and I go to cook noodles.”
I would only cook noodles.
Chen Ran stopped me, and she insisted on the fridge out from the body leaving only a few eggs into the kitchen, the fire was lit, gas Zizi of the ring. Chen Ran hiding themselves inside the kitchen, afraid to come out, face in the pot boiling, the heat gradually so that’s really the kitchen have become extremely blurred, Chen Ran could not resist, and she finally lying on the stove in the kitchen crying up.
She avoided me cry, but I stood behind her.
I am from behind Lan Zhu Chen Ran, she cried, shaking the shoulders a total of less severe, the entire people have been with the shoulders and shake the ups and downs. Finally, she Niuguo Shen, but stuck to my neck, crying Ganchangcunduan. Cry over, the pot noodles also paste the.
During that time because of Chen Ran, I became a hot bureau figures, people no longer feel that I am a happy person, my happiness was originally just a lie, they looked at me, eyes full of regret.
Father gave me the phone, his father said, the bureau is considering transferring my Office of the Director of the things I did at this time every thing will affect my future, I know that my father’s meaning, my father has not told me about Chen Ran, but his every word, all and Chen Ran relevant.
I have decided not to ignore the opinions of others.
Ran Chen and I have to live together, place is my single quarters, Chen Ran at first did not agree and I cohabitation’s request, I persuaded one afternoon for her promise that she was the Public Security Bureau has a habit of fear, a police car She would ring inexplicable trembling, sweating forehead emerge.
Chen Ran said: “The dream that many police officers, police ringing, lights flash to flash energetically.”
I hugged her, and she seemed even more frail than before, and thin, which is a whole body trembling young woman, a woman-resident city needs care, she came from distant places, have been in many strange men tired of the dealings between Now she was lying in my arms, I have the responsibility and obligation to comfort her.
Chen Ran in the vicinity of a magazine to find a text entry part-time work each day she would wake up early to go to work in the evening after work hurried back to cooking, that period of time that she now seems to be recovering for us It was a very valuable later remembered the beauty of life.
But the beauty is always short-lived
One night in her pockets, I saw an envelope, I opened read, envelopes, where money is very thick Yida, I became thirsty, Chen Ran a bath in the bathroom, I rushed directly into, I put the money lavished on her naked body, the money fell on the water, I threw on the bathroom bitter.
Chen Ran did not dare return to bed, she slept on the sofa in the living room one night, next day I woke up, she has gone, arrayed on the table for breakfast, milk steaming.
For several days, Chen Ran did not dare talk to me, she was timid of looked at me with care, bathing, sleeping and eating, I said, Chen Ran, you tell me where the money come from? Chen Ran do not speak, she is far away from me, the teeth bit his lip. I said: “Little Ran, I love you, what can I forgive you, you tell me how this is going on all right?” Chen Ran still do not speak, her mouth tightly shut, silent .
Finally, I get angry, and I lavished on that day she tidied the bathroom was again turned the money back out of the room where the high toss, the money released into the atmosphere the same as the flowers open, the end up all over the floor, I said : “Chen Ran, go, holding these men to give you the money went to good old days you go.”
I put my door, it was my first time that a girl kept out.
Chen Ran away, that night I never saw her, I went to her house looking for her, and Chen Ran live girls said she had left here, she said Chen Ran has left me with two letter.
That girl gave me two envelopes, the first envelope which is Yida money, girls say that this is a Chen Ran for her turn to me, let me back to my father. I am shocked, I suddenly understand the plot behind the Da money, I think of his style of acting would otherwise remain hidden always thought of Chen Ran received this money when the mood – in another envelope is a letter that there is only one words: I hate no one, why should I hate it? However, I hate. There are many couples around us to see much more of the total from sum up to some law. Following a number of laws, not roads lead to reasonable, but there are several near the “devil’s Law.”
Stir-fry’s Law: the affirmation of the regular cooking wife, cooking good food is definitely her husband.
Loyalty’s Law: the more a wife loves her husband, the husband to his wife, the more loyalty; husband more loving wife, the wife to her husband, the more disloyal.
Money law: a wife to spend money on dressing up (beauty, dress), the husband to spend money on enjoyable (tobacco, liquor, license, etc.).
Shopping’s Law: the vegetable market on the one dish I do not know what to buy a good wife, one to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, see Han Han dishes more than the husband.
Mature Law: The more we are in love with his wife, the husband of the more mature, more coddled by her husband with the wife of the more immature.
What Law: Who was between husband and wife, then more and who, if not more weight.
Harm to law: between husband and wife, one against the other to pay more you get hurt when breaking up the greater.
Complained Law: often complain that the wife is always, often the husband is always complaining.
Ganhuo Law: in her husband’s eyes, not always live at home; in the eyes of his wife, the family always has much to do.
Work Law: Things like the income is always brought the matter to her husband, to do things like add a good is always a good wife.
Dress Law: a man is only fitting clothing and a lack of popular clothing; a woman is only a popular clothing and a lack of fit of the garment.
Out the law: The most anxious to get out and the wife, the last one out is also his wife.
Washing Law: his wife washing dishes easy to net, the husband fragile dishes.
Laoke’s Law: the more the spirit of the more chatter over the wife, the more chatter less if multiple is the husband.
To go home Law: his wife, an out wanted to go home, her husband does not love a home to go out; do not want to go home when his wife, the husband had to hurry home; her husband do not want to go home when the wife have to leave home sooner or later.
Quarrel Law: The more couples have no quarrel with the more heated debate about the causes of the more ominous.
Ridiculed Law: In the know how to love, couples, where the inter-evolved into a sense of humor will be ridiculed, in the love of husband and wife do not know where each other’s sneer will evolve into a war.
Distance Law: Sometimes the couple geographic distance between the farther the distance closer.
Crisis’s Law: When the family when the economic crisis, the husband always hoped that the idea of a wife to help themselves, but the idea is whether the wife for a husband.
Temper Law: between husband and wife decided to temper the size of how much money, not people who make money Meipi Qi.
Equality Law: husband and wife both think of themselves as parents, can be another important thing individuals do not.
To persuade the Law: the event of conflict between husband and wife, to persuade more people come forward, contradictions, the more no easy solution. Accustomed to this way, listen to music, writing things, music is not necessarily my favorite, as I have the same text. Ugly and beautiful if there is anything related, then I think are real bar. This world, there are only two things that can be eligible for pride, one is the sun, one is wound. Sunshine true then frankly the envy of the wound, the wounds can be the envy of the sun smile so insufferably arrogant. I think that if they have one attached to my soul, a certain wounds. The truth is the angel, a lie is a devil, I think I was an angel, but I fell in love with the devil, this world is too much uncertainty and too much of the helpless, and for me, is nothing more than luck Unfortunately, wandering in a shadow. If we say that what my world is able to escape the shadow, I think, only that name, that appears in a lot of people around, but there have been etched in my name.
Recognizing Young was in a morning. To be precise, is a sun kissed my skin just moments. Since the bar out, the sun is so warm, clean, and I am somewhat a complex about. Exalted little bus this time, quiet is so cheap, this is not a quiet night’s dirty secret that I think this may be a gift, but belongs to me how little time remains.
Yang took the bus, I looked at the table, is 5:37. 5:37, a taste of the boy distributed the sun smiling, asked me, Can you sat next to me. This smile makes me a little stunned, long-lost smile, very warm, very practical.
5:38, I would whisper to each other and Jan used the phrase “Good morning.” 5:45, good weather, Yang said one simple sentence. I smiled and I do not know what to say. Silent, quiet. Flip a newspaper’s voice. 6:03, I said, I went to.
Young in the window with a smile, and I said farewell.
Turned to go, I think, who empties the bus did not remember me, I will not remember who.
Back home, my head hurts. Come early to get milk, and eat random points, a bath, sleep. Wake up, it is already 13:00, and go to the kitchen, making lunch. I like to do something for themselves to eat, so as to let me take care of their own kind of feel a sense of accomplishment. 3:00, I sat next to a computer, a home magazine asked him to, I have to catch up as soon as possible is good, a thousand words 80, one month can be as long as there once a manuscript Manuscripts, I have Internet access fees, and if there are two can be published use of the utilities I have, and if there are three to Manuscripts, I solved the problem of feeding half the battle. I use words too decadent, gloomy, like many people, including myself. To lower the curtains, and occasionally came to light leakage is so lonely, crumbling.
I often write on the campus of love, simple, Chun-chun, and clean like a child’s eyes, no money, no trading, no use, not deceived, but, but always at the end you do not want to die dismal. My Story, wrote that the last is a tragedy. Love itself is a tragedy, forever is nothing but wishful thinking I fills Haikudanlan are nothing more than natural or with or without change in fills I do not believe Bo Zhou, unwavering in something cold, wet inside, but do not believe that a simple repetition of the Book of Songs, where the initial those love poems. I was cheated big, I am not willing to grow up to be deceived.
The story written, and the hero has no name, the boys called Yang bar. Readily Qiaoxia’s name so that my heart startled. Young, but a passer.
19:00, giving her mother called to tell her that all is well my mother at ease, and asked me when to go home, I said that the company was too busy, temporarily will work, over period of time then.
I said, the company already has is not my place of shelter. I do not want to deceive my mother, but had to hide something, I think I can feed myself.
Her second year, I fell in love, Culture, and feeling very stable. After graduation, we have a city break up S world, I worked at a company, Man’s parents to help, he registered a company. I, Culture and cohabitation, and so the days of stability after a less than a year, the text did not say marry me, and I did not want him. Wen the companies of poor management performance of the company where I have a very good, Wen told me that he was determined to win this project, he wanted me to help him, and I know that this “help” what is meant by the word, he said that if successful, on and I get married. I agreed.
Matter was brought to light the. I leaked the company’s trade secrets, the text had not been able to get that project. I implored, the boss let me, I know, since then, I can no longer do this line of.
Wen called me useless, his company went bankrupt, he was back home. I am a man stayed, but fortunately, the house there are six months before it expires, I have no money, only a still unborn child.
Man had gone on the third day, I know, I have nothing. I need the money.
That is not the bar, the business can be, the boss is a woman, her pity me, and give a very reasonable salary. I despise such a pity, but the courage to refuse such mercy.
22:30, I came to this bar. Not many people here this evening. Finished singing five songs, I can take a break, one night about 15 or so. 2:00 later, I can not sing, accompany guests chatting. 5:00 am, I can go out, and so, six and a half hours I can get 60 yuan. Guests not to tip. Running a bar, a woman is very head, she knew that this city there are many, many people want to find a stranger is talking, what of those who entered the bar I do not know how much money would give her, but will not let her lose money in . Many guests come to me to chat, I think, lonely people do not just my one.
I was out of the bars.
5:37, that boys and smiling, like yesterday, asked me to sit next to me … Can …
Every morning, 5:37, I will see Yang smile.
Understanding of Yang’s first 30 days, I take the money, knocking out the child.
Understanding of Yang’s first 50 days, I found the afternoon working in a print agency type.
To S city of that time, I did not think I am going to rely on writing things, typing, singing, accompanying someone to talk to to make money to feed themselves. Of course, I did not expect to encounter Yang.
Understanding of Yang’s first 83 days, I found a formal job, is a cosmetics company. And I, too, start the phone.
Understanding of Yang’s first 113 days, I was officially hired, I will continue to be on rest days over the weekend to go to bars to sing, accompany someone to talk to, help people typing, and, writing to make money.
Understanding of Yang’s first 120 days, I have money in hand. I started having nightmares, I know, that child is innocent.
Understanding of Yang’s first 125 days, Young said, he wanted to chase me.
Understanding of Yang’s first 130 days, I said, Yang, do not love me.
Young fell in love with me. He did not know that I sang in a bar, do not know if I give someone else to type, do not know if I accompany someone to talk to, do not know if I writing to make money, he only knew that I now in cosmetics. I think I can not love up.
Young was still in university, when every morning I saw him was that he go back to school time. I am two years older than Jan, I have had a boyfriend living together for one year, I have had a child only three months of life.
After all, and Jan are happy days together. I like it or not make-up, makeup, and he was walking on their campus, there were some pretty girls pass by, at least younger than me, but Young said he liked my eyes kind of melancholy, and strong. Young occasionally come to my weekend here with us cooking, eating, watching television, he does not stay in me, always before 9 o’clock and I Good-bye. He did not know, I can no longer make money typing at the weekend, but still, he was gone Qu Najia bar. I need a job, I need the job to help me solve some problems.
Young is a child, he wanted to question is always so simple. He said he soon graduated, he did not marry me PubMed graduate can see him happily, my heart bleeding. I Xiangjia but can not marry Yang, Yang loves me, but love is the sunshine, me, and he did not know the corner I was so lonely, gloomy.
Young University graduate, and professional relationships that he was very easy to find a decent job and income, Jan was so good, and I know where he went is a sun. Yang to pull me to meet his parents, I think, I’m afraid.
Night, I could not sleep, in front of the computer was written to support my existence, perhaps, my words are not really always, my record is nothing but one of my real life, bars, Pei Liao, typing, paid for them, work, there is that three months of the child, leave my man, and, in this love my big kids, Yang.
Understanding of Yang’s first 184 days, I became a freelance magazine writer, my job is just a true record of my life, it opened a magazine column – an eolian specifically included in such a place like me , do those who do not sell their bodies, but no dignity of a woman’s life. I do not want to sell themselves, so, I told myself, this is not betrayed. I began to addition of the copies of income, each serial, a month off, I think, I can quit the bar job.
In this way, I go to the company during the day to work at night to start writing my memories, or the ongoing diary. I did not tell anyone my real situation, I think, I like the sun.
Cosmetics company performance is good, three months, I have a raise. Young is my lucky star.
Fail to beat Yang, recognizing Young’s first 213 days, I went to see his parents. Yang’s parents were school teachers, gentle, cordial.
I think Young should also be good to marry it, at least, I can Yasushita thought to be properly made a wife, mother of the future.
Young’s birthday in our understanding of the first 235 days, Yang do not want me to buy gifts, he said he wanted the gift very special. I agree, please one day sick leave. I did the day Young’s wife.
Morning, 6:00, Jan came to see me, we went to morning market to buy food, looking at Yang serious bargaining, I think, doing really good Young woman. Young would not have to buy food Well, I feel that Young is so real cute.
8 o’clock, I and Jan finished breakfast. Jan asked me on the sofa with magazines, he went to washing dishes. Young, wearing my apron, a bit small, very funny. Yang bowl wash very clean. He is simply a serious person, I think Jan is the kind of boys strive for perfection.
9:00, I am wearing a skirt Yang to help me pick him out shopping. Not only over the weekend, shopping malls Liren short, I Accompanied Yang, the half a head than I imagined the boy be my man. Young pulled I went to the home decoration there, I know that Jan in the conceptualization of our small house. Young said that the change my curtains, and the color is too cold, and looked so depressed and wanted a change in warm to. Young, beautiful selection of curtains, the main colors orange and white flowers sparse, very clean, very simple.
1 pm, I am sitting on the roadside and Jan bench for lunch, Yang said that we should “meal wind exposed places,” through thick and thin.
15:00, Jan helped me hang curtains. ed hardy clothing Curtains hung, and the room will have a look angry. I think this is a girl’s time, and I was a woman.
Jan and I sat on the sofa watching TV. In the Young arms, I feel very safe.